Sunday, September 19, 2010

Looking Up

ISSF was the best thing that happened to me this year =)
it was such an awesome week met so many new people and made new friends ^^
Most importantly i fell in love again, So this post is dedicated to you (you can dedicate posts right? haha)
I love you Yina Xiao

Friday, June 25, 2010

你踩到和留下的心,还在跳动,只有给你跳动的
(The Heart That You Stepped All Over And Left Is Still Beating And It's Only Beating For You)

Monday, June 21, 2010

Because you have a soul, you love
Because you have a soul, you hate
Because you have a soul, you are happy
Because you have a soul, you get angry
Because you have a soul, you feel rage
Because you have a soul, you feel pain
Because you have a soul….i want you…all to myself…

Friday, June 18, 2010

What can you say about the first person you fell for?
I love her, so much that it hurts....

Could you go a whole year without cursing?
nope

Compared to this time last year, are you happier or sadder?
definitely sadder

Is life getting better or worse?
stable at the moment....

Have you ever got a D or F on your report card?
yep. no one's perfect

Will this week be a good one?
Saturday should be awesome ^^

If someone warns you about someone, do you listen?
mostly yes, i then confirm it myself.

Do you prefer to take showers at night or in the morning?
i don't care, though i take showers in the morning before school

Does the last person you held hands with mean a lot to you?
yes....she's was the one of the reasons life was worth living....she gave me happiness....and took it all away....

Are you waiting on anyone’s call right now?
nope

Have you texted an ex in the past 48 hours?
nope

Do you secretly like someone?
i like someone and no its not a secret

Is there a person of the opposite gender on your mind?
yes, always

Your mom kicks you out, who you gonna call?
i dunno...

Whats better, beautiful eyes or a beautiful smile?
prefer the smile, though they'd be both good

Is there anything you’re holding back and not saying to someone?
yes....

Are you wasting your time on someone?
yes...but i cant stop....

Has anyone lied to you today?
not that I know of

Would you ever smile at a stranger?
yep

you are home alone do you still close the door when you shower?
no shit >.>


Have you ever hugged a complete stranger?
nope

What do you bite on more, your tongue, lip, or nails?
lip

The person you have the strongest feelings for dies, do you care?
you wouldnt want to know what i'd do...."
she's was the one of the reasons life was worth living"

Have you told anybody you loved them today and meant it?
nope

Do you prefer drinking water from a bottle or from the sink?
bottle

Who are you?
a person...

Describe how you feel right now in one word?
shit/depressed (as per usual)

Do you want to get married one day?
one day yes

Has someone ever made you a big promise & broke it?
not that i can remember

What were you doing at 12 am last night?
sleep

Did you cry today?
nope

Do you swallow gum when you’re done with it?
never

Are all of your friends in relationships?
nope

The last person you kissed calls you, what are they calling you for?
there is no one >.>

Are you okay with answering personal questions?
yeah mostly, if its someone i trust

Is your best friend single?
i dont have a best friend...anymore


Would you go out in public looking like you do right now?
yep



Do you know what you want to be when you grow up?
something in medicine...

Do you wish someone would turn up at your front door right now?
yes....her....or...maybe...not

Who was the last person you had a face to face conversation with?
cant remember

Do you sleep with anything?
nope

What are you drinking?
water

Love really is a beautiful thing, huh?
yes.....but right now....no

Did anything dramatic go down yesterday?
nope

Are you afraid to stay home all alone?
I'm not afraid I just get bored

Does the person you like, like you back?
no...not even the slightest....=(

Have you ever walked away from someone who was yelling at you?
no shit

Do you ignore people when you’re mad/upset with them?
sometimes, normally its the cold quick reply thingo


Did you kiss or hug anyone in the last 48 hours?
kiss never, hug yes

When you say you don’t care do you mean it?
yes if its something trivial,

Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow?
no shit

Do you like to take walks?
no not really

What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon?
on a bus to marion

Have you ever cried cause you were so mad?
nope

Have you ever wasted too much time on a girl?
I have right now....7 months and counting

What is your favorite thing about the beach?
nothing

If you could run away to any place, where would you go?
anywhere but here, as long as i still have her....

What is your biggest regret?
...lets...just say its something to do with her....


Have you ever been so hurt that you wanted to stop feeling completely?
yes....right now

Are you a cold/shut off person?
i can be

Would you rather play sports or watch them?
rather play, but i dont mind both

Where do you go when you just need to get away?
my room

Will you be in a relationship in the next couple months?
i dont think i want one.....i dont think i ever want to fall in love again....its too painful...

Are you a jealous person?
i can be

Give me some lyrics to the song your listening to?
刮风这天 我试过握着你手
gua feng zhe tian wo shi guo wo zhe ni shou
That day that the wind blew I tried to hold your hand

但偏偏 雨渐渐
dan pian pian yu jian jian
But unfortunetly, the rain kept on

大到我看你不见
da dao wo kan ni bu jian
Falling until I couldn’t see you

还要多久 我才能在你身边
hai yao duo jiu wo cai neng zai ni shen bian
How much longer until I can be beside you again?

等待放晴的那天 也许我会比较好一点
deng dai fang qing de na tian ye xu wo hui bi jiao hao yi dian
Waiting for the day to turn clear, maybe I’ll be a little better then

从前从前 有个人爱你很久
cong qian cong qian you ge ren ai ni hen jiu
Long ago, a person loved you for so long

但偏偏 风渐渐
dan pian pian feng jian jian
But unfortunetly, the wind kept on

把距离吹得好远
ba ju li chui de hao yuan
Blowing, widening the gap so much further

好不容易 又能再多爱一天
hao bu rong yi you neng zai duo ai yi tian
So difficult, (I have) another day to love again

但故事的最后你好像还是说了拜拜
dan gu shi de zui hou ni hao xiang shuo le bai bai
But it seems that, at the end of the tale you still said, “Goodbye”


Whats the first thing you thought of this morning?
more sleep

If you could go back in time, how far back would you go?
2009,term 2, aviation museum excursion day, train ride back to school.....back to when it first started....so i can set things right....

Monday, June 14, 2010

Change...

She's....completely changed....i can barely recognize her anymore...

Saturday, June 12, 2010

LAYER 1: ON THE OUTSIDE.
Name: Soonlee
Birth Date: 04/10/93
Current Location: bedroom ;D
Hair Color: black
Righty/Lefty: righty

LAYER 2: ON THE INSIDE.
Your fear: loosing the people I love
Goals you’d like to achieve: finish year 12

LAYER 3: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW.
Your thoughts first waking up: sleep, sleep....why the hell do i have to get out of bed >.>
Your best physical feature: dunno....
Your bed time: when i finish homework or when i feel like it
Your most missed memory: that time i spent with her....

LAYER 4: YOUR PICK.
Pepsi or Coke: pepsi..though i dont really mind either
McDonald’s or Hungry Jacks? Hungry Jacks
Single or Group Dates: single
Adidas or Nike: who cares >.>
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee: neither

LAYER 5: DO YOU.
Smoke: no
Cuss: when im pissed off....or just to annoy Wenonah
Take showers: every morning ^^
Have a crush: yep ....
Like school: sometimes...though now its like hell >.>
Believe in yourself: yep...if i wont then who will?
Believe what goes around comes around: its called karma kids.
Believe everything happens for a reason: yes.....though i really want to know why it happened....or why she did it..
Think you’re a health freak: nope

LAYER 6: IN THE PAST MONTH.
Gone to the mall: obviously >.> how else do you get stuff?
Eaten sushi: no shit >.> Do i look white to you?
Been hurt: yes.....to the point of no recovery
Dyed your hair: As much as it looks like i have ...I HAVENT PEOPLE! >.>

LAYER 7: HAVE YOU EVER.
Played a stripping game: wouldnt you like to know ;D...i'll tell you if you play ;P
Kissed the same sex: fuck no...never have and never will >.>
Gotten beaten up: nope
Changed who you were to fit in: nope

LAYER 8: GETTING OLD.
Age you’re hoping to be married by: dont care atm... not relevant
Number of kids you’re planning on having: 1 or 2

LAYER 9: IN A GIRL/GUY.
Best eye color: not fussed....but i'd say brown
hair color: black
short or long hair: as long as it looks good
Fat or fit: not super fit.. just normal
Looks or personality: personality, the looks are a bonus (freaking Wenonah took my line >.>)
Fun or serious: a mix

LAYER 10: WHAT WERE YOU DOING.
1 MINUTE AGO: surfing the net (fb/msn)
1 HOUR AGO: the same
1 WEEK AGO: homework
1 YEAR AGO: sleeping.

LAYER 11: FINISH THE SENTENCE.
I FEEL: tired/exhausted/depressed (as per usual)
I HATE: what she did....
I LOVE: her...
I HIDE: many things....only a few people know the real me i'd say
I NEED: to get over her
I WANT: sleep lol

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Your favorite song atm? Love Ya- SS501
Your least favorite song? There are to many to name =.=
A song that makes you sad? Torn Apart- Shiro Sagisu (instrumental)
A song that reminds you of someone? Heartbeat- 2PM
A song that reminds you of a certain event? 我落淚,情緒零碎- Jay Chou
A song that you know all the words? 杀手- JJ Lin
A song from your favorite group? Without U- 2PM
A song from a band you hate: Gee- Girls Generation >.< (horrible)
A song that describes you? Without U- 2PM/ 晴天- Jay chou.....i could list more....
A song from your favorite album? 夜曲- Jay Chou from November's chopin 十一月的蕭邦
A song that you listen to when you’re angry? Any hardstyle song on my playlist
A song that you listen to when you’re sad? 小雨写立可白 II- Jay Chou- Secret OST
A song that you want to play at your funeral? 죽어도 못 보내 (Can't Let You Go Even If You Die)- 2PM lol
A song that you can play on an instrument? 小雨写立可白 II- Jay Chou- Secret OST (piano)
A song that you wish you could play? wedding dress- taeyang (for gamen cause she wants me to play it for her)
Your favorite song at this time last year?....cant remember

Sunday, June 6, 2010

Random Thoughts.....

Sitting here....wondering....
was i just nothing to you....something to just be tossed aside...pushed away....when you just got bored?
locked out with no key, never to be let in again....
is this what you want?

no matter what you do...i still feel the same way about you...
even after 7 months....nothing has changed
you were my reason to live....without you...
life is empty and meaningless to me.....without you...

this loneliness is killing me inside....
this suffering is eating me away....
the hole you left is still there
nothing to replace it
and no one to give me back what you took away from me....

i lay here waiting...waiting....
for the day that may never come...
for the words to come from your mouth
for the feelings to come from your heart
and for your warmth to fill my cold...cold heart...

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Forever Love- Wang Leehom 王力宏

Verse 1:
爱你
ai ni
Loving you

不是因为你的美而已
bu shi yin wei ni de mei er yi
Not just for your beauty

我越来越爱你
wo yue lai yue ai ni
I love you more and more

每个眼神触动我的心
mei ge yan shen chu dong wo de xin
Touching my heart with each glance

因为你让我看见forever
yin wei ni rang wo kan jian FOREVER
Because you made me see forever

才了解自己
cai liao jie zi ji
And then I understood myself

未来这些日子
wei lai zhe xie ri zi
The days that are coming

要好好珍惜
yao hao hao zhen xi
I will appreciate them properly

爱我
ai wo
Loving me

有些痛苦有些不公平
you xie tong ku you xie bu gong ping
Sometimes it's painful,sometimes it's unfair

如果真的爱我
ru guo zhen de ai wo
If you really love me

不是理所当然的决定
bu shi li suo dang ran de jue ding
It's not a definite decision

感到你的呼吸在我耳边
gan dao ni de hu xi zai wo er bian
Feeling you breathing into my ears

像微风深情
xiang wei feng shen qing
Just like the soft wind and deep love

温柔的安抚
wen rou de an fu
Gently comforting

我的不安定
wo de bu an ding
My restlessness

所以我要
suo yi wo yao
That's why I want

每年研究你的笑容
mei nian yan jiu ni de xiao rong
To study your smiles each year

wo~~
wo~~
wo~~

多么自然
duo me zi ran
How naturally

Chorus:
forever love forever love
FOREVER LOVE FOREVER LOVE

我只想用我这一辈子去爱你
wo zhi xiang yong wo zhe yi bei zi qu ai ni
I only want to use my life to love you

从今以后
cong jin yi hou
From now onwards

你会是所有
ni hui shi suo you
You will be everything

幸福的理由
xing fu de li you
A reason for happiness

Verse 2:
爱情
ai qing
Love

是场最美最远的旅行
shi chang zui mei zui yuan de lv xing
Is the most wonderful and furthest vacation

沿途遇经泥泞
yan tu yu ji ni ning
Encountering mud on the way

偶尔阻碍我们的前进
ou er zu ai wo men de qian jin
Occasionally blocking us from going on

感到你的体温在我怀里
gan dao ni de ti wen zai wo huai li
Feeling your warmth in my embrace

像阳光和煦
xiang yang guang he xu
Just like my light

巧妙的熔化
qiao miao de rong hua
Cleverly melting

我的不安定
wo de bu an ding
My restlessness

不可思议
bu ke si yi
Inconceivable

证明我爱你的理由
zheng ming wo ai ni de li you
Proving my reason to love you

wo
wo
wo

多么自然
hu duo me zi ran
How naturally

Chorus:
forever love forever love forever love
FOREVER LOVE FOREVER LOVE FOREVER LOVE

我只想用我这一辈子去爱你
wo zhi xiang yong wo zhe yi bei zi qu ai ni
I only want to use my life to love you

从今以后
cong jin yi hou
From now onwards

你会是所有
ni hui shi suo you
You will be everything

幸福的理由
xing fu de li you
A reason for happiness

Verse 3:
你感动的眼睛
ni gan dong de yan jing
Your touched eyes

我沉默的声音
wo chen mo de sheng yin
The sounds of my silence

仿佛就是最好的证明
fang fu jiu shi zui hao de zheng ming
Perhaps is the best proof

就让我再说一次
jiu rang wo zai shuo yi ci
Just let me say it once more

I love you oh
I LOVE YOU OH
I LOVE YOU OH

直到永远
zhi dao yong yuan
Until forever

forever love forever love forever love
FOREVER LOVE FOREVER LOVE FOREVER LOVE

我只想用我这一辈子去爱你
wo zhi xiang yong wo zhe yi bei zi qu ai ni
I only want to use my life to love you

从今以后
cong jin yi hou
From now onwards

你会是所有
ni hui shi suo you
You will be everything

幸福的理由
xing fu de li you
A reason for happiness

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

私はあまりそれが痛いあなたを愛して (I Love You So Much, That It Hurts)

Monday, May 31, 2010

雨が来て、それらのつらい記憶を洗い流す聞かせて (Let The rain Come and Wash Away Those Painful Memories)

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Sadness

Feeling sad atm =(
"Gave me 2 different tears
After all these years
Tears of joy, tears of pain
Like sunshine and rain
So I hate you
(But the love you gave me was so so good)
So I love you
(But the pain you gave me was so so bad)"
Wonder Girls- Two Different Tears

lol (not really)
heres the lyrics to a better song that suits my mood:

Jay Chou- 我落淚,情緒零碎 ( I Cry, My Emotions Are In Pieces)

English First ( For Those Who are Not Asian >.>):

Verse 1:
Ground broken wings of butterflies
Not free to spread
Love was even more heartbreaking
More details can be
The wind field around a few blocks
Autumn leaves were harvested
Then another night
Fusarium wilt emotional sentences are

I don't want to write readily tear off this page
Originally can't end with the departure
Focal length so I regret to write poetry along fold
Several heavy feeling you pick a bouquet of white roses love back

Chorus:
I don't feel held back tears
Break up this season in the windy
Cry for a long time will be tired
Only thought of others
Cold coffee
I awake with a cup adjourned

I cry feeling fragmented
Scenes are blowing your world
Man with stab wounds outside the Rose is also a direct
Used to be reading the outcome of the snow sky

Verse 2:
I don't want to write readily tear off this page
Originally can't end with the departure
Focal length so I regret to write poetry along fold
Several heavy feeling you pick a bouquet of white roses love back

Chorus:
I don't feel held back tears
Break up this season in the windy
Cry for a long time will be tired
Only thought of others
Cold coffee
I awake with a cup adjourned

I cry feeling fragmented
Scenes are blowing your world
Man with stab wounds outside the Rose is also a direct
Used to be reading the outcome of the snow sky

Chinese (for the asians):
Verse 1:
地上斷了翅的蝶
Dìshàng duàn le chì de dié

不像自由地蔓延
Bù xiàng zìyóu de mànyán

愛原來更心碎
Ài yuánlái gèng xīn suì

都可以更細節
Dōu kěyǐ gèng xìjié

田野風繞過幾條街
Tiányě fēng rào guò jǐ tiáo jiē
秋天收穫了滿地的落葉
Qiūtiān shōuhuò le mǎn dì de luòyè

於是又一整夜
Yúshì yòu yī zhěng yè

感情的句子都枯萎凋謝
Gǎnqíng de jùzi dōu kūwěi diāoxiè

我不想寫隨手撕下這一頁
Wǒ bùxiǎng xiě suíshǒu sī xià zhè yī yè

原來是跟離別可以沒有結尾
Yuánlái shì gēn líbié kěyǐ méiyǒu jiéwěi

焦距後悔的跟著寫於是我把詩折疊
Jiāojù hòuhuǐ de gēnzhe xiě yúshì wǒ bǎ shī zhédié

有幾重感覺挑一束白玫瑰你將愛退回
Yǒu jǐzhòng gǎnjué tiāo yī shù bái méiguī nǐ jiāng ài tuìhuí


Chorus:
我不落淚忍住感覺
Wǒ bù luò lèi rěn zhù gǎnjué

分手在起風這個季節
Fēnshǒu zài qǐ fēng zhège jìjié
哭久了會累
Kū jiǔ le huì lèi

也只是別人的以為
Yě zhǐshì biérén de yǐwéi

冷的咖啡
Lěng de kāfēi

我清醒著一再續杯
Wǒ qīngxǐng zhe yīzài xù bēi

我落淚情緒零碎
Wǒ luò lèi qíngxù língsuì

你的世界一幕幕紛飛
Nǐ de shìjiè yīmù mù fēnfēi

門外的薔薇帶刺傷人也很直接
Ménwài de qiángwéi dài cìshāng rén yě hěn zhíjiē

過去被翻閱結局滿天的風雪
Guòqù bèi fānyuè jiéjú mǎn tiān de fēngxuě

Verse 2:
我不想寫隨手撕下這一頁
Wǒ bùxiǎng xiě suíshǒu sī xià zhè yī yè

原來是跟離別可以沒有結尾
Yuánlái shì gēn líbié kěyǐ méiyǒu jiéwěi

焦距後悔的跟著寫於是我把詩折疊
Jiāojù hòuhuǐ de gēnzhe xiě yúshì wǒ bǎ shī zhédié

有幾重感覺挑一束白玫瑰你將愛退回
Yǒu jǐzhòng gǎnjué tiāo yī shù bái méiguī nǐ jiāng ài tuìhuí

Chorus:
我不落淚忍住感覺
Wǒ bù luò lèi rěn zhù gǎnjué

分手在起風這個季節
Fēnshǒu zài qǐ fēng zhège jìjié
哭久了會累
Kū jiǔ le huì lèi

也只是別人的以為
Yě zhǐshì biérén de yǐwéi

冷的咖啡
Lěng de kāfēi

我清醒著一再續杯
Wǒ qīngxǐng zhe yīzài xù bēi

我落淚情緒零碎
Wǒ luò lèi qíngxù língsuì

你的世界一幕幕紛飛
Nǐ de shìjiè yīmù mù fēnfēi

門外的薔薇帶刺傷人也很直接
Ménwài de qiángwéi dài cìshāng rén yě hěn zhíjiē

過去被翻閱結局滿天的風雪
Guòqù bèi fānyuè jiéjú mǎn tiān de fēngxuě



Wednesday, May 12, 2010

School life 2010

One word.....boring...
On second thought...not bad actually....
sure what happened last year sucked still pissed and hurt from it but i'm ok.
"I'm gonna be ok, gonna be ok, I'll be ok, gonna be ok
Baby without you, baby without you~"
lol so bored atm ^^

anyway school is alright sure homework is a bitch but friends make it worth it.....(and youth allowance ^^)
like there is this one chick named Wenonah, its so fun to tease her ^^ (wenonah and Brian ^^...lol)
everyone else is awesome we all hate year 11, cause it sucks... stupid new sace >.>
I still havent found someone to replace her....it's really hard to replace your closest friend....
but meh like i said: "I''m gonna be ok, gonna be ok, I'll be ok, gonna be ok
Baby without you, baby without you"

lol anyway best get back to homework....maths.....gay....
laters